Trust

A dozen years ago I finished reading "Prayer: Does it Make Any Difference?" by Philip Yancey. I wrote these thoughts then and as I came across them now I find that they still resonate within me.

Near the end of the book, he quotes Helmut Thielicke speaking to his German congregation near the end of World War 2.

"One day, perhaps, when we look back from God's throne on the last day we shall say with amazement and surprise, 'If I had ever dreamed when I stood at the graves of my loved ones and everything seemed to be ended; if I had ever dreamed when I saw the specter of atomic war creeping upon us, if I had ever dreamed when I faced the meaningless fate of an endless imprisonment or a malignant disease; if I had ever dreamed that God was only carrying out his design and plan through all these woes, that in the midst of my cares and troubles and despair his harvest was ripening, and that everything was pressing on toward his last kingly day--if I had known this I would have been more calm and confident; yes, then I would have been more cheerful and far more tranquil and composed.'"

Now back to my thoughts. God has a plan and I don't see it all. But I want to trust...to trust God more. We don't need to be in the middle of a World War to experience sadness, weakness, fear, and doubt. Every day we wonder why all of this is happening around us and in us and the ones we care about. Still, God has everything under control. I choose to believe that. Someday I will see God face to face but now I see dim reflections. But the reflection shows me Jesus more and more. I will follow the light I have and know that the light is Jesus.